yoga

I had a student approach me recently and say, "I am a christian and my faith doesn't permit me to do yoga, so when you do yoga would it be alright if I don't participate?" I replied, "I didn't do any yoga." She says, "you know, the day we did the breathing stuff, it just made me uncomfortable" I said "Do you not usually breathe??"

What do you do with that??? Do Christians not breathe???

Fear is an amazingly powerful thing and what a brilliant way to harness people.

Markism II

I was reading Dr. Suess's Oh, The Places You'll Go to Mark last nite. When we got to the part about tarrying in the Waiting Place I went down the long list of things one must wait for, Mark then adds:

"Or waiting for the dinger to ring when you're in a time out."

Yes, Mark, that is right, that can be the most painful wait indeed!

Did I tell you he is three??

There are times when I am going along like normal and I'll hear a song and suddenly I am knocked out of my reality and for a moment or two i think about what it would have been like if you were here. Like how different life would be for me. It's as if that song is you, reaching out to just say "hey, remember me, I loved you once." And for that brief time I think about being in a different time, a different space and a fully different reality. How strange this life can be, that if the path splits and we have no choice but to take one direction, we are still left with the fantasy of what the other path could have been like. And it becomes it's own life, only a personal, private life. I could have had a normal life and because you left I have to live these 2 lives now; one seemingly real and the other what I imagine it could have been.

DREAM

The other nite I had a dream: I was performing in an alternative space and I was improvising, it reminded me of a gallery space and I had very little room to move about. All the Hollins people were there including some of my close friends, all of whom were milling about not paying the slightest bit of attention to me while I performed, as if they were at an art opening or something, drinking wine and talking in groups. People were walking through the performance space and at one point some guy starts to partner me, like contact improv stuff, and I get really angry, at which point I throw him to the ground and say "Don't you EVER mess with me while I'm dancing!!!" After the performance one of my best friends comes up to me with a glass of wine in hand and tells me how great it was, I am so irritated I look at her and say "WHAT?? you weren't even watching!!"

This may turn out to become my thesis!

Quotes from Augusto Boal

"Knowledge and health are power, so economic elites try to conceal knowledge and destroy health. An ignorant and debilitated people is more easily dominated. It was US Senator Barry Goldwater who said that poverty is necessary to capitalism, since it facilitates the negotiation of salaries and conditions of work: the workers are afraid of losing their jobs."

from Legislative Theatre

Markism

I asked Mark, "Who is God?"
He replied "He takes care to Jesus and he makes neon, beautiful neon."

streams of thought...

listen to the tiny drips of anxiety seeping relentlessly from my tiny thoughts that create something but not anything real but more of a lifeline

speed along the little highways of deep resonation, depth around a pool of ever shrinking possibilities that widen this perception into a space that easily fits on the pin of a head

bottom out the corresponding virtue of a magical giant who resides in my mouth

he will not expunge the virtue of his own brilliantly flying bullet

I am a word that drips from my heart without the mindless virtue of knowing a soul exists there